Serenity Poncho

“Serenity” poncho

serenityponchoThe “Serenity” poncho came about on a recent camping trip in my home state of Arizona. The water, trees and Native American influences of the region inspired the creation of “Serenity”.






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Baby Jesus Under the Christmas Tree

The burden here is sweet....


This is a free pattern of a Christmas tree with a removable top, revealing a little “manger” underneath with a swaddled baby Jesus.  I designed and made this for my boys’ room for Advent in 2010, to help prepare their hearts for Christmas.  Anyway it got a lot of play and fun.  I always wanted to put this pattern on my blog.  This pattern will be offered for free as are all my patterns.  🙂


This little tree is intended as a decoration.   Therefore it is not intended for small children, especially those under the age of three.  This is a free pattern shared as a gift.  Please do not post this pattern anywhere and call it your own.  Please do not change this pattern and call it your own.


Yarn: Vanna’s Choice in green, gold, white & brown or equivalent yarn weight/colours

Notions: small 2″ wooden peg doll or…

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WIP – 3/8/17 Woodland Themed Afghan My New Moose Applique

The Rusted Pansy

I’ve gotten a good start on my woodland afghan! I’ve made two trips to Michaels for yarn and spent about $34 so far. I know this amount will grow as I need two skeins of yarn each of the four different dark colors and at least probably 5 skeins or so of the Aran color. I’ve purchased one skein of each so far… plus each applique calls for it’s own colors/brands. I could probably rummage through my yarn stash for ones that will work for the appliques… but who doesn’t love an excuse to go buy new yarn!? Just a tip, while at Michaels, I couldn’t find the ‘rouge’ color the pattern called for but I found a beautiful cherry color to substitute.

Here is what I have done so far… fox, moose, pine tree, bear, owl and 2 blocks each of colors. Only 50 more blocks to go!

I have to note…

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Crochet Amigurumi Eyes by Tanya of HodgePodge Crochet

How To Crochet Eyes For Your Amigurumi


Heidi, from Snappy-tots or now Totally Snappy, for the rest of the month of May, to celebrate her birthday, and also to celebrate 5 years with her snappy tots business, is, as a thank you to her loyal fans and followers,  giving us GIFTs~free patterns!!! Check out her Facebook page and blog to get all the info! It is time sensitive so don’t procrastinate! 😀


Go to her Facebook page and like to make sure you never miss all the snappiness she provides!

Congrats Heidi/Totally Snappy-Snappy Tots on your success and here’s to the next 5 years! and Happy birthday! God bless you oh generous one! 🙂

Personal thoughts following Borderline Mandala post on depression/mental illness and the act of creating!

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OK here is what I wanted to share regarding creating and depression or mental illness and how crocheting has helped me cope and save my life!

Crafts and DIY projects of all kinds, the act of creating in itself, can help keep your mind occupied and distracted enough to let the feelings of sadness, depression, anxiety, unworthiness, or whatever ‘negative’ thoughts that invade your brain, you know, that tape that plays over and over and over in your mind…and doesn’t like to shut up! The action of creating something, anything, in ANY form or medium feeds your soul with a spark of positiveness!

Creativity and creating something with you own hands, no matter what it is, is like hitting the pause button of that looping tape in our tortured minds, for a moment, to let the Divine speak to our heart and soul, to shut the ‘negative’ sound up for a small amount of time (unless, like me you seem to have trouble counting your stitches, then you have a whole ‘new’ set of problems taking up residence in your brain coming out of your mouth lol 😀 It may or may not include naming calling, throwing something, ripping up, throwing out, or frogging (crochet term ‘rip it, rip it’! (not admitting to any of this, but it’s a good thing I live alone LOL!)

Crochet has been saving my life, even if you want to call it escapism, at least I am alive and not hurting myself or want to die all the time BC (before crocheting)! I have faced so much loss in the last year and a half, that since I have been crocheting now, and the difference in coping now, compared to a devastating, unexpected, out of the blue, what the hell are you saying???, loss 4 years ago today, has been night and day. I am also dealing with my mom, who I love with all of my heart and soul, of being very ill, and who, since Feb, has been sticking her foot/feet in the grave, but then pulls them out! Don’t get me wrong, my automatic thoughts are to self-harm when dealing with horrible stuff, but crocheting has and is starting to replace those thoughts and feelings and sometimes almost visual movies of hurting myself, and it gives me purpose knowing that something I am creating will be used by someone and sometime in the future.

I have made lots of things in the last year to give as donations for many different charities, from preemie babies, to kids/adults with ‘c’ (sorry won’t say that word!), homeless and people living in shelters, military; well you get the point! I have made several items for family members and a couple of people I care about. I would love to make some ‘twiddle muffs’ for Alzheimer’s patients to keep their fingers/hands busy and calm their minds.

Thanks to some very, very giving and generous ladies on social media, I have been blessed in this past year and a half; yarns, crochet hooks, a darning needle, and even a couple very skinny knitting needles, which I have always wanted to learn how to knit so much, and I actually tried it last month, thanks to watching Mikey of the Crochet Crowd, who tried it and inspired me to just do it!, but those needle were just TOO thin, (think dry spaghetti) so it was very frustrating! They were double pointed and trust me at a few points (OK many many times lol :D!), I was ready to stab my computer watching continental knitting ‘instructional’ YouTube videos, or stab my brain for not getting it, or the mattress, something lol 😀 (again, good thing I live alone and a shut in!) I will try again though when I get some really fat needles and big yarn so I can see what I am doing!

So I am so very grateful to those who shared their stash with me to give me something to crochet with. They probably will never know just how much they saved my life and sanity in this past 1 1/2 years! The only way right now in this point in my life to pay it forward, is by making things for charities until my situation changes for the better! So, from the bottom of my heart and my soul, a public THANK YOU to those who donated to me!


I have not been able to work for over 4 years now, due to health issues, surgeries, and my debilitating depression++, and for the last almost year now, have been pretty much bed ridden. I am a bit panicked because I am almost out of any yarn, and am using real ‘wool’ types, of which I am allergic too! (thank goodness I have benadryl!) But I will do what I did when I didn’t have anything to crochet with…I frogged things I had already made, so I could just keep crocheting.

I am sharing this for the first time like this (a few people know all, and a few times I have shared some details on different blogs to let others know they are not along), not for sympathy or attention or kudos or as excuses for my life as it is right now, but again to let others know ‘YOU ARE NOT ALONE‘ and to also say that doing something that is positive and creative, especially to do something for others, can make all the difference in the world. And NO it doesn’t work 100% of the time, but, at least for me, it is better than laying here crying in pain and letting my thoughts run away like a freight train. At least this way, I may still be crying and in pain, but I am also creating and trying to do something for someone, which gives my heart and soul joy and purpose! And that in turn helps me to deal moment by moment!

Find something that you can enjoy doing and that you look forward in doing, even when the pits of hell open up. Write, color, crochet/knit, make cards, do woodworking, leather crafts, jewelry making …ANYTHING that gets you in the creative meditative flow and if you can then turn it around so that it can be made for a specific cause or charity or person, trust me, your heart will sing joyfully even with the pain stiff taking up occupancy there at the same time! I don’t think, at least in my case, the mental/emotional pain will EVER go away, but over time, it does tend to not be as raw and stinging like walking into a hornets nest (OUCH!!!), and fades more in the background, only to rear itself, sometimes with no rhyme or reason, but I just crochet faster when it happens!! When I get upset, the 1st thing I want to do now is grab and hook and yarn and create!!

I really hope sharing this will help even just one person and if I can ever be of help to you, please leave a comment and I will get back to you (sometimes I hide from the world so it might take me a moment, but if I am really needed, I will be there the best of my ability! For the most part, I have become pretty used to being all along and communicate with very few people except on a couple of social media groups/pages. But that feeling of being isolated is not good for anyone. Humans I don’t think were meant to be deserted islands, so if you find yourself in that situation and you need someone to talk to that really knows what you are going through, reach out. I know I don’t really talk to anyone anymore, but I am extending it to you if you need…I will answer, if I am able, and not leave you stranded, if I can help it. Or try calling someone you think cares about you (you know who they are when you’re NOT depressed~when we are depressed etc we don’t think anyone cares!)

Reach out to someone please! I know these places are not always the best, but:

******If you or anyone you know struggles with Suicidal Thoughts:*****

Need help?

United States: 1 (800) 273-8255 National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Hours: 24 hours, 7 days a week Languages: English, Spanish Website:

Thanks for reading and God bless!


Borderline Mandala

I was moved to share some personal stuff/thoughts which I posted in a separate post to not take away from this post.  (Personal thoughts following Borderline Mandala post on depression/mental illness and the act of creating!)


Wink was absolutely right.  The colors and the process of creating mandalas is very therapeutic and the results are always so fun to admire and enjoy.  Like Wink, i too struggled/struggle with Ment…

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It’s the Southern Diamonds Shawl Crochet-Along

get those hooks ready! this beauty is a CAL and starts May 14th!


It’s the Southern Diamonds Shawl Crochet-Along Details!